Monday, June 30, 2008;8:57 PM
Feeling damn f(reak)-ing bad now k. Lemme list you why.


SCREAMS* Feels so horribly terrible yknw? As if i’m a walking corpse w/o a soul, a heart. TALK LAH JIAHUI, IDIOT. I feel like crouching down and scream everyth out.

Peepo been asking wht hit me tdy, & i think this could most prob be th reasons. If you have any negative comments abt this post, kindly keep them t youself & gossip w/ your friends. I don’t live for your comments so shut up.



Sunday, June 29, 2008;1:13 AM
Sometimes it's nice t look back @ how you've came thus far & have a good laugh @ yourself. Look how much you've matured & stuffs. Rmb-ing th times when twiting of words were th in thing, hah. O remarked that i seemed t have became quieter aft hols & i do agree w/ her. IDK wht's wrong w/ me but somehow i feel v.alone. Th loneliness looming in me & a sence of impending doom, tht a conflict would soon be picked up, probably bcos whenever i feel down & blah, i have a tendency t throw tantrum @ everyone unreasonably or simply just ignore/stop talking t them. I knw this shouldn't be th way, trying t change it alr (:

Outed w/ matey tdy, or should i say ystd? Hah, & i got myself blisters @ th back of both legs. Grr. & now i hafta liift my leg off th ground in bath. Look like a flamingo leas, gah. So sinfully, awfully painful esp when liquid trickles down th wound. Heal, stupid wound.



Friday, June 27, 2008;11:32 PM
BETTER but still not thoroughly ok yet. Nothing happened in particular actu tho, part of growing up as i said. Realization & awakening from th mistakes. Tight slap on th face of how i used t be. This is supposedly t be my 100th post but I don't see a big deal out of it, a nice no. that's all. Had a haircut just & it looked f(reaking)horrible. Mommy! D: Gah, it's ok. I'd pin it up again. Grr.



Thursday, June 26, 2008;10:15 PM
Feeling EXTREMELY bad now. Th emotions just hit me like a tidal of waves. Wht t do, whot turn t. Assure me it's part of growing up & I'd be fine soon. Afterall it's part of growing up isin't it? Completed eng hols hwk but e.lit's still undone D: Grr. I'm still thinking how i'm gonna put it to Ms See tmr /: Anywayzx, received th 'O' Lvel chi entry proof. Gah. Super nervous abt it. It's just next tuesday. God, bless me, w/ all th power of elements on earth.



Sunday, June 22, 2008;5:17 PM
Dx

I'm sure i don't hafta qo on t explain why this pouty face do i ? Recall tmr's date & you'll qet why. Hols hwk still undone. I'm in fer it this time /: Viewinq tmr w/ a mixed feelinq. Excited yet dreadinq. Missed lotszx of lovely peepo in sch but th rest of th schdays t come is really irkinq me. Grr. Hols, do come aqain soon alriqhty? (:



Wednesday, June 18, 2008;10:36 AM
RACE AGAINST TIME. Last week of hols are always always always the busiest week fer all stud. Lots of hols hwk untouched. Gah, better buck up & start work jiahui :D

Currently back into movies aqain. It's not qood, i knw. But w/ really nice & interestinq new movies cominq up, it's simply irresistible D: Thr are so many movies i wish to watch;uncountable. Would most prob be catchinq a movie + dine tqt w/ miss wanq aft mind cafe trip w/ mei & (?) tmr. & mommy just told me ystd to inform tuition centre that i couldn't make it fer both tuitions on fri ; they're brinqinq me to NIGHT SAFARI w/ relatives as uncle qot free tickets. Wheets* Niqht safari, niqht safari, NIGHT SAFARII ! Omq. I've always wanted to make a trip down to the zoo someday this hols & now my parents are brinqinq me even tho it's @ niqht but still, ANTICIPATING;D Jump for joy*

!Random: now that i've realised, th weather nowadays is really humid. Beads of perspiration would start tricklinq down even whilst i'm sittinq down @ th livinq room or smth. Gah. God, please send us some wind+rain.



Monday, June 16, 2008;6:54 PM
! WARNING LAST WEEK OF SCH HOLS .

IDK why I'm countinq the no. of days i have left but still../: I miss sch in a way but i dread it as well D: Hols hwk yet to be completed, but soon :D Hah, it have to be anywayzx. Okay. This shld be abt it.

P.s. Better dream toniqht, i
hope.



Sunday, June 15, 2008;5:50 PM
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY ! To both daddy & of course M.B daddy :D Yeh, i still love my daddy despite everyth ystd. Conflict w/ daddy's resolved but w/ mommaye..D: Nvm, it's just one of those thinqs i suppose? Sorry i hadn't enouqh time to qet the presents. Just learnt that it's father's day tdy on fri aft tuition. Gah. But a belated one is a promise

Taqqed by matey to do these. Decided to do this since i reckon some of the questions are really interestinq. Hah.

1. What do you think an ideal best friend should be like?
Look into all my qood friends, they possess qualities i think ideal best friends shld be like. You miqht not aqree tho, but to me, it's. Everyone's diff.

2. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Hmm, not quite think of it yet. I'd take wht i can qet fer the time beinq.

3. Who’s life would you want to takeaway most?
Hah, is thr dine in? Wht question. Takeaway fer (?) in the first place.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Slap myself awake from bed. It's apparent it's just a dream. A v.nice one tho :D

5. Describe yourself in three words.
-SKIP- Rather note to self in three words : Take it easy.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both are equally as blissful. 'My qreatest happiness in life is to love & be loved' IDK who quoted it but still, makes sense.

7. What’s the one wish you’ll make this very moment?
At the current, a clone to help me complete my hols hwk & everyth else.

8. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
When? Not quite but certainly, thr must've been ;D

9. Do you believe in ghosts?
Yeh. & monsters under the beds,witches & stuffs. Hah. (Note th sarcasm)

10. If the person you like secretly is already attached, what would you do?
Wait till they break up then intercept. Hah. Kiddinqs :P That happens pretty often doesn't it. Accept th fact. Wht else can i do?

11. Would you like to confess to someone you love by yourself, or through your friends?
Confess by yourself would be qood but usu fer me, I'd keep it to myself.

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Loved ones. Those whom i treasure & cherish.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
That'd be ANTIYOU CCCCCCC! (wonder if i qet th no. of Cs riqht) Hah, till he/she reveal his/her true identity, no comments.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
If forced to make a choice, married but poor. Wht's th pt of havinq ultimate riches whn thr's no one whom can share your joys w/ you?

15. What is the first job you wanna take once you graduate from school?
Events planner fer joyous occasions. Balloons, yes, thr MUST be balloons ;D Heh.

16. What’s one thing you hate most yet you can’t change?
History, as in my own. Till i have th ability to turn time back.

17. How would you rate the perfection of you life now? On the scale of 1 to 10.
IDK. It depends on a daily basis.

18. Among your friends, who do you think is/are the most similar with you?
Understand me, but no one can ever be similar to me entirely. Everyone's an unique individual.

19. What do you think makes you stand out from the others?
hmm, hah. -SKIP-




Saturday, June 14, 2008;9:11 AM
OKAY. A chanqe in skin aqain. Dee previous one was really adorablee but still i've fiqured out i prefer balloons above everythinq. So, here's my new skin, a collaqe of balloons :D
  • Tuition was cancelled aqain ystd cos TT wasn't feelinq well D: Tho i detest tuitions, but still, qet well soon k cher? (:
  • Went to Audrey's Salon to qet B's hair rebonded. It was faster than expected I'd say :D Make me feel like rebondinq hair also lehx. Tskk. It was really nice & comfortinq to be tqt w/ her. E lauqhters we shared , chats & simply everythinq we do tqt P.s. My previous skin did have mouse in it afterall now that i looked back @ it, B (:
  • Met TM fer tuition, weekly routine ;D Walked arnd awhile, bouqht some stuffs then went fer tuition. We were early fer tuition ystd ok? Lauqhed & went bonkers durinq tuition. That stupid woman kept lauqhinq @ my qrr & qee D: Aww, feel so hurt lehzx. Hah.
  • Went to dee coffee shop arnd TM's estate to dine aqain. I think I'm used to eatinq e same old dish everyweek after tuition. Walked matey home then went back fer P.Chem tuition.
  • Still couldn't catch anythinq durinq P.Chem tuition. GRR. But it's ok, I'm sure i'd be able to pace up aqain sometime. Acc mei to buy her fries from Mac then homed. Ohoh. & i qot a shock of my life when i saw mei's haircut, not in a bad way or anythinq, just shocked, perhaps bcos i nvr expected her to cut her hair till that lenqth.
  • Homed & confer-ed on e phone awhile w/ B & Firman. Wanted a confer w/ GA.S initially to discuss abt e class qatherinq but it's late so we aborted e idea. It was a crazyyy time on e phone w/ B & Firman luh, lauqhinq & screaminq, well, only me :P
All these stuffs all the while. Those beautiful lies you weaved. I chose to refrain from it once & for all. I did MY ok. But chose to retain your speculation & pin me down. Speechless was what you left me, seriously you did. But I'd still live on w/ or w/o you. Moved on pretty fine till now as a matter of fact (:

Note : treasure & cherish, like how you'd want to be from the world. Treat peepo the way you want to be treated. Be the change you wish to see in the world.

IMY (?) IDK. Doesn't matter to the both of us anywayzx. You just marked an insiqnificant role in my life story thus far. It's up to you now. You decide who you wish to be for the rest of your role.

I HATE TO PUT ON A CHEERFUL & NONCHALENT FACADE WHEN DEEP DOWN I KNOW ABSOLUTELY HOW I FEEL, ESP WHEN I'M ALONE. THOSE EMOTIONS SEEM TO OVERWHELM ME LIKE A TIDE OF WAVES.



Friday, June 13, 2008;7:58 AM
What d'you think abt this bloqskin? Nice? Yeh, you better aqree cos it's done by ALICIAHOMUNYEETM! Firstly thanks fer everythinq ystd matey. Sorry i had to leave halfway when you were helpinq me. Sorry fer beinq so fickle-minded + picky D: You went thru lots to help me create this skin & i appreciate it; i really do & i love this skin to the MAX. Bouqht a lil somethinq fer her, shall pass it to her lata durinq tuition. Can't imaqine what's her reaction when she see what i've prepared :D Hee.

P.s. We decided to adopt this skin cos we couldn't think of anyone usinq this skin @ current or in dee past, so it's not copyinq riqht ;D We wouldn't have used this if someone else's usinq this already.

Ystd
  • Met TM @ CWP's cold storaqe. Wanted to qrab smth, ok Ben&Jerrys actually, before qoinqq over, but we couldn't find dee flavor we want + the price's whao whao whao.
  • Shopped arnd a lil & qrabbed a bite @ Gelare, waffle+2scoops of ice-cream.
  • Trained + bus-ed to matey's housey. She suqqested lots of other places to qo durinq dee journey but we ended in her place since i kept pesterinq her that i wanted to qo over :P Sorry matey /:
  • Went to her place & she started on my bloqskin while i played her DS. Yes, & i played cookinq mama. I smell jealousy O. Next time you shall buy it k? I knw you'd be able to save up enouqh & buy it someday. & it'd be me borrowinqq from you dee next time :D Stopped playinq aft awhile & we started lookinq fer skins tqt. Touqh time searchinq fer one i'd say, but still, we found 1. Yeh, the current one you're viewinq & i had to make a leave cos MissWanq reached alr & was hunqry. So aye, sorry matey. Really v.v.v. sorry, to leave halfway when you're helpinq me w/ my stuffs D:
  • Was late in meetinq MissWanq as well. I'm really srry abt everythinq, dee communication breakdown as you phrased it & everythinq. Dined @ CWP food court then we went to shop arnd fer what she wanted + help B check dee price of salons. Spent >1h @ MiniToons. Whao riqht? Beats me wht we did thr as well. Shopped arnd a lil while more @ other qift shops & homed.
All in all, it's still a SPLENDID DAY, except fer parts of dee day i ruined /: & i was non-sensical & a lil tonque-tied ystd, yae. Seriously N-o-n-s-e-n-s-i-c-a-l & t-o-n-q-u-e-t-i-e-d. IDK why.



Thursday, June 12, 2008;11:08 AM
10 MORE DAYS TILL DEE HOLS END.It's sickeninq, really /: I miss school in a way or another but still, I'm not prepared to qo back yet. Give me another month perhaps. I'd be ready fer school then.


That's all. Dry & borinq.



Wednesday, June 11, 2008;9:19 AM
GRANT.ME.MOTIVATION. For what i knw i want.

YSTD
  • Trained back to Yishun fer tuition. Bouqht some qoodies fer tuition @ Fairprice then headed fer tuition. & as I've decided, I'd still resume all my tuitions thr afterall (: Went to popular to qet wht mei wanted after tuition & homed.
Everythinq to be kept to my heart.



Tuesday, June 10, 2008;9:26 AM
Many peepo've attempted this quiz & i thouqht that i miqht well qive it a qo as well (: The results are as follow. It's quite accurate I'd say. I'm not v.sure abt dee majors but dee minors are absolutely true.

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

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You scored as Psychology/Sociology

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Psychology, Sociology, or related majors (e.g., Counseling, Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology, Social Work, or other social science majors).It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology and Sociology are both great minors to add to any major.

Psychology/Sociology



100%

Mathematics/Statistics



81%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing



81%

Education/Counseling



69%

HR/BusinessManagement



69%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage



69%

Visual&PerformingArts



69%

English/Journalism/Comm



63%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy



63%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health



56%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts



50%

Physics/Engineering/Computer



31%

Religion/Theology



31%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology



25%





Monday, June 9, 2008;10:21 AM
IT'S THE 3RD WEEK OF HOLIDAYS ALR. 3RD WEEK 3RD WEEK. 3RD WEEK. Gah.

Home today to complete housework + hols homework D: Rawrrr!

Checklist fer today
  1. Sew clothes
  2. Wash clothes
  3. Iron clothes
  4. Complete as much hols hwk as possible
A G-R-E-A-T weekend spent last week. Thanks TM , daddy, mommy, S, B fer makinq my weekend so beautiful

Super hiqh ystd. Yes, hiqh. You qot it riqht. HIGH HIGH. From dawn to dusk. Hiqh ALL-THE-WAY. Felt like jumpinq arnd & scream + yell , whatever.



Saturday, June 7, 2008;10:08 AM
YSTD
  • Bused back to NP. Walked arnd abit to qet what S.O want. Saw mei + B on dee way *shrieks*
  • Trained to Sembawanq to meet Twinnie. Adjusted my specs then trained to Woodlands. Saw WeiQi on dee train :D Comfortinq chat w/ Twinnie on dee way. Headed to 7-11 to buy some qoodies & then off to PartyWorld. We didn't qet to use dee voucher cos StudentPackaqe's still MUCH MORE affordable. Grr. Felt a lil cheated cos we came ystd cos we thouqht we could use dee voucher, but still, it's ok ;D Sanq sonqs, but not as enthusiastic as ystd tho. Partially bcos of our starvinq tummies + my mild sore throat + apathy due to short hours of sleep dee niqht before /: Was so bored that we started selectinq children nursery sonqs. A qreat lauqh. P.s. I hope your tummy's beta now Twinnie ♥
  • Killed time by walkinq arnd CWP w/ Twin since i was still early from meetinqq TM. However, Twin had to make a leave @ 5.30 so we parted & i trained to Juronq East & back to Yishun 1stly to kill time 2ndly to qrab some sleep on dee journey but still, didn't exactlys manaqe to catch up w/ much sleep tho D:
  • Met TM & then headed fer tuition. Nice chat + a qood lauqh TM ♥ Told TT that I'd be qrabbinq smth to eat before i return fer P.Chem tuition. Dined @ dee coffee shop somewhr arnd TM's estate. Missed dee noodles thr alot la qeezx, same old dish which i always order whenever TM & i dine thr. Walked TM home & lazed arnd under her void deck while waitinq fer her parents to return w/ her dinner. && cheerupzx ayeez TM?
  • Went back fer P.Chem tuition & we started discussinq abt JCs, IDK how we qot started as well. & i think I chanqed my mind aqain, perhaps i really DO wanto qo to JCs affterall. Notwithstandinq, w/ my current L1R5 result, I'm definitely declined of even YJC/JJC so i really qotta start WORKING REAL HARD if I'm determined fer a JC.
TDY
  • The day's still younq but before i forqet, bon Voyaqe to those headinq to China tdy ♥



Thursday, June 5, 2008;5:40 PM
Last min invitation to PartyWorld by Twinnie. Yayzx, thanks fer dee invitation uh Twin. I thouqht i'd be rottinqq @ home tdy. Sanqq, lauqhed & distressed thr. Probably qoinqq thr aqain w/ Twin tmr aft A.Maths supp since we received some voucher, but it's yet to be confirmed.

Recent issues have been troublinq me as most peepo'd have known. Tormented by quilt & friends encouraqinq me to confess to parents. Just ystd niqht before we went to bed, i've decided to pluck up my couraqe & own up. Surely I'd hafta bear my own consequences. Surprisinqly, my parents were totally cool abt it. They seemed to have realised it all alonq, just waitinq fer my to own up + apoloqise. I'm really really relieved that i confessed to them. & I'm really sorry daddy mommy. Notwithstandinq, they noted that because i've took their money, as my punishment, they wouldn't be qivinq me much money fer this hols lest they deem necessary & warned me nvr to repeat dee same mistake aqain D: But that's only what's fair riqht? So i accepted. Sure daddy mommy. This shall be dee v.last time. Promise :D

Everyone makes mistakes fer no one's perfect & i'm sure everyone deserves a second chance. So please, don't just pin me down just bcos of one error.

Reminder to myself : FILE + HAND IN P.CHEM FILE BY TMR TMR TMR! :D



Wednesday, June 4, 2008;8:03 PM
HAPPY 19TH ANNIVERSARY DADDY & MOMMY Commeratinq 19yrs of marriqe. The both of you have came thus far tqt & may dee both of you keep countinq on :D P.s. Do qet well soon ayeez mommy.

SUNDAY
MONDAY
YB.S.O.GA.B my forever
Fun in dee sunDee beautiful moments we capturedPicturesque scenery of dee beachI shouted : I ♥ HQ
She shouted : I ♥ JHScreamm, all your frustrations out
Silly O
Catchinq, our all-time fav past-time qame
She's my SSS
Sweet escape
Hey kaki
Away from dee bustles of dee cities

I walk a lonely road
Never shun from dee sun

(?)
B reach fer dee stars.
B @ dee top of dee world
Until you come & sit awhile w/ me.Attempt 1
Ta-daaaa
Takinq in dee breathtakinq scenery of dee beach.

Dee love we shared
See you qirls next Sun. Much awaits

Cheerupz ayeez qor, I'm sure everyth'd fall back into place SOON (: Cheeros :D

TUESDAY
Cheeros ayeez Dawnn? i've qotten over mine alr, so must you kay? You've always been a v.stronq qirl in my eyes.

Each lesson life sends us brinqs both pain & joy. My all-time fav. phrase :D



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