Friday, October 31, 2008;10:28 PM
HAPPY HALLOWEEN !
Didn't cele tho /: Nonetheless, I seriously, badly, wanted t D: Anw, caught HSM3 w/ San. & Dbr tdy. A lil disappointin. Xpected much > from th show esp. whn it's th finale & aft many positive feedback frm others but no, th movie was mainly focusin only on musical but practically not much storyline D: Anw, new love♥ updated hoy! A.Maths is th new ultimate heartthrob ; I totally love it t th max tht I can spend my entire day doin it w/o complainin/feelin tired. If only someday I can be an A.Maths pro yaw. Contrastingly, I h8 all other subs apart frm A.Maths t th inmost core too.
Didn't cele tho /: Nonetheless, I seriously, badly, wanted t D: Anw, caught HSM3 w/ San. & Dbr tdy. A lil disappointin. Xpected much > from th show esp. whn it's th finale & aft many positive feedback frm others but no, th movie was mainly focusin only on musical but practically not much storyline D: Anw, new love♥ updated hoy! A.Maths is th new ultimate heartthrob ; I totally love it t th max tht I can spend my entire day doin it w/o complainin/feelin tired. If only someday I can be an A.Maths pro yaw. Contrastingly, I h8 all other subs apart frm A.Maths t th inmost core too.
P.s. Perhaps I still like yellow mre la, ha ;P I knw I'm contradictin + paranoid.
♥
Thursday, October 30, 2008;6:08 PM
I guess I'm startin t be sick of Yellow alr. My current fave's Red , ha. Beats me why too. But for certain things, I'd still retain tht yellow's nicer (; & I feel like takin back my words la, hell. I don't really like ext. prog afterall coz I only end up gettin scolded, durin SPA & E.Maths. Bah. WHATEVER LUH, WHATEVER OK, SERIOUSLY WHATEVER. Nonetheless, Chem SPA was reeaaally tough tho, tsk D: Watchin HSM3 tmr w/ San. & Dbr, wheeeuuwheee :D Long awaited. & finally, I'm gna watch it tmr hoy!
I knw I'm quarrelsome these few days, uh, so? H8in me won't make you a better dog, it'll only make you bigger, a bigger female dog, woof.
I knw I'm quarrelsome these few days, uh, so? H8in me won't make you a better dog, it'll only make you bigger, a bigger female dog, woof.
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Wednesday, October 29, 2008;7:09 PM
Yes, I'm drained goin t sch while everyone else in lower sec is sleepin their way thru their days, but surprisingly, I LIKE IT ALOT! (; Sch was not too bad thus far, really. No, I'm not outta my mind. I'm not a self motivated self & I depend gr8ly on sch t gear me back t th study mode. & I currently am switchin back, v.slowly tho ;P Finished watchin Moonlight Resonance, so I can now focus on my studies 100%. Tuition's startin this week + 'O' Lvl starts nxt week for us, for chi & both SPAs, so yeh, work hard yo people! :DHello female dog, juz bcos you have th support of yknw who doesn't make you popular / mean you can boss me arnd ok. Stop barkin, I knw you're unhappy. I'm not v.happy w/ you either.
♥
Monday, October 27, 2008;11:19 AM
Th room was packed like sardines ystd night but yet I felt so alone. I sat on th bed & listened t my aunt tappin away on her phone ; somehow I had th urge t check my phone, juz like how I used t in th past, wakin up in th middle of th night like an auto alarm juz t reply ur msg. Nonetheless, I pulled myself back & talked myself into my senses ; u're long gone. Th past surfaced in my memory, all th things you.we did. For tht spilit second, I really felt like retrievin back tht feeling but I realised, I might miss th things we had, th things we did, but I don't miss you, but I'm glad I don't. Cos IDK wht would bcome of me if I do.
So cousins came ovr ystd, they were much mre mature & sensible > whn I last saw'em. But still, we didn't talk, thr's juz this distance btwn us which cannot be possible t bridge in juz a short span of time.
Anw, presentin my current fave ;
F.L.I.N.T.S.T.O.N.E.S (:
Aren't they juz adorable? Ha.
♥
Saturday, October 25, 2008;8:42 PM
Bad news.
Cousins are comin over on Mon so I deliberately planned an outin w/ HQ & San. so I don't hafta see my cousins however short of cash I am recently{Infer how much I detest'em}. Now, they say they're comin over tmr night t sleepover, gah. So it means it doesn't make a diff. whether I go out on Mon or not righto?
Hello? I said I was nvr good w/ handlin immature, whiny, irritatin, violent kiddos righto? So shut up if you have any comments ok. My family affair is none of any of ur business, TYVM.
Cousins are comin over on Mon so I deliberately planned an outin w/ HQ & San. so I don't hafta see my cousins however short of cash I am recently{Infer how much I detest'em}. Now, they say they're comin over tmr night t sleepover, gah. So it means it doesn't make a diff. whether I go out on Mon or not righto?
Hello? I said I was nvr good w/ handlin immature, whiny, irritatin, violent kiddos righto? So shut up if you have any comments ok. My family affair is none of any of ur business, TYVM.
♥
Friday, October 24, 2008;9:04 PM
If you can't handle me @ my worst, thn you don't deserve me @ my best (;
I think this phrase makes alota sense yo. I muz admit I've nvr been able t get along well w/ kiddos & dogs, ha. Sometimes, I keep mum t avoid a tiff, so kindly don't aggravate it. I juz don't wish t disrupt th peace of yknw :D I rmb hatred equally as vividly as how I rmb love, perhaps even clearer, ha.
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Updates of th week tmr, yaw !
I think this phrase makes alota sense yo. I muz admit I've nvr been able t get along well w/ kiddos & dogs, ha. Sometimes, I keep mum t avoid a tiff, so kindly don't aggravate it. I juz don't wish t disrupt th peace of yknw :D I rmb hatred equally as vividly as how I rmb love, perhaps even clearer, ha.
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Updates of th week tmr, yaw !
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Tuesday, October 21, 2008;5:59 PM
Wish list updated hoy ! (;(;
I'm so so soo determined t get into SP's Integrated Events & Project Management / Tourism & Resort Management course + perhaps take up Netb as CCA :D I've thought thru for this entire yr & I'm 100% sure I would nvr go JC; even if th impossible happen & I could get into th best JC, I would still choose SP [:
Hello? I knw whr I stand & set realistic targets ok ! {:
Hello? I knw whr I stand & set realistic targets ok ! {:
♥
Sunday, October 19, 2008;4:52 PM
Let go ; life's like this.
People come & go. No one's worth anyth but yourself (;
It's ok, I won't pick up a quarrel or anyth.
I've thought thru & learnt alot.
I'm really drained tryin t hold people right here right now.
Everytime things go amiss, I blame myself.
Now, it ain't goin t be th case anymre.
Even if I'm gna be a solitary individual, I'll live happily.
No one can walk w/ you till ur v.last breath
so why try so hard.
People come & go. No one's worth anyth but yourself (;
It's ok, I won't pick up a quarrel or anyth.
I've thought thru & learnt alot.
I'm really drained tryin t hold people right here right now.
Everytime things go amiss, I blame myself.
Now, it ain't goin t be th case anymre.
Even if I'm gna be a solitary individual, I'll live happily.
No one can walk w/ you till ur v.last breath
so why try so hard.
♥
Saturday, October 18, 2008;1:52 PM
Ytsd night, I ransacked my drawer juz t find tht note(s) you gave me previously. I was mre than determined t discard'em in a fury previously & I'm thankful I didn't bcos I think I'd have shoot myself t death if I did ; it still meant alot t me. Even tho I've put you behind now, th past will still remain ; be it whether they were nasty memories or beautiful memories, they are still precious. I still can't believe I could rmb almost every significant text you sent ; could even recite'em backwards up. I thought aft it all, I've forgotten abt th past, but I apparently haven't. I think I can try for my entire lifetime, but th past will always be etched in my brain, but no, not in my heart anymre tho (;
Whtever tht's lost is always th best bcos you can nvr get it back agn.
Anw,
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溏心風暴之家好月圓-Moonlight Resonance
This HKong drama recommended by Lithium square is simply fantabulous. Parents been wantin t watch this a gazillion yrs ago but they had t wait for my EOY t end be4 we can watch tgt, so aye, I knw I'm a lil slow t watch. Watched till ep6 currently but alr teared like crazysh1t. Those who watched th show would und. why. But seriously, watch if you haven't ok! It's definitely mre > worth ur time :D
Anw,
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溏心風暴之家好月圓-Moonlight Resonance
This HKong drama recommended by Lithium square is simply fantabulous. Parents been wantin t watch this a gazillion yrs ago but they had t wait for my EOY t end be4 we can watch tgt, so aye, I knw I'm a lil slow t watch. Watched till ep6 currently but alr teared like crazysh1t. Those who watched th show would und. why. But seriously, watch if you haven't ok! It's definitely mre > worth ur time :DTh distance btwn us, it's seemingly widenin, so far apart it feels like we were frm different worlds. Does she or whoever it might be now, mean tht much t you? Mre than everyth we shared in th past so much so tht you seemed t have forgotten th past. I still rmb, vividly, every single detail, but u thought I don't tht's all. You feel like a stranger t me now. Sometimes, I no longer feel like confidin or even talkin t you, bcos you feel a million miles away from me. I thought we'd nvr drift apart, I THOUGHT. I was so naive, SO NAIVE t have thought this way. I should've long knwn you'd nvr stay for long. Smth juz don't feel right nowadays, tho IDK wht. We aren't spendin time w/ one another like how we used t. We seem t be close still, but it's all on th surface. T me, your heart's w/ her ; she's who you genuiniely wish t be w/. You, you're juz trashin me arnd, violatin me, insultin me, mockin @ me yet I put up w/ all ur crap bcos I still wanta retain this f/s ; Bet you've nvr realised this. Sometimes, you ask why I was upset, whether I was angry w/ you, I'd be lost for response, unsure wht t ans you. I tell you no, & you started bcomin ego & stuffs & start w/ all ur previous acts. IDK y you juz seem t seek joy in insultin me/mockin @ me esp. whn I failed smth or whtsoever, I really DK. U've nvr really spared a thought for me, don't tell me you did cos it'd be utter bullshiat. Sometimes, you injure me so hard tht it hurts, I nvr breathed a word. Sometimes your insults get overboard, I nvr said a single thing, bcos I don't wanto be petty. Sometimes even if I keep quiet & mind my own business, you'd still faind faults w/ me, yet I juz keep'em t myself, keep all emotions t myself. Sometimes, th reason is YOU, yes YOU YOU YOU! You nvr realised, tht's all.
♥
Friday, October 17, 2008;5:04 PM
I'M HAAAPPY ! (;
You need not knw why tho, hee. It's not neccassary.
Scarnival was borin, hella borin ! Much worse > lessons ok! I'd rather have lessons, serious. Ok, I should stop abt th Scarnival be4 I start cussin. So enuf abt th Scarnival, but I muz admit This is Not Dung was interestin, teehee (childish people, ha). Chi mock was cancelled for th day, hehe. But I 4got t collect my paper t prac. @ home tho, ;P . Collected back E.Lit results thn lunch w/ HQ & Love. Oh, & extension prog.'s timetable's out alr & thr's so many SS & HMT lessons la! Gosh. But @ least dismissal time's much earlier > sch time (; So it sorta make up for th excessive SS & HMT lessons aye? But still, it doesn't mean lesson's wouldn't be a bore :X
I've always thought u'd be some1 I'd place above everyth, w/ priority t everyth I do ; I thought u'd think & feel this way too, but I suppose I was wrong. I'm nth t u ; they still mean mre t u than I do.
You need not knw why tho, hee. It's not neccassary.
16.10.08
Went t Mind Cafe w/ 'nna(finally, she had time 4 us,tsk), PXuan & KHay. Gr8 time gr8 time! They kept laughin @ my slow reaction la, pffs & plus plus. I wanta go agn next time okkayy! :D Trained t Bugis alone first thn waited till they finish their lunch, shopped arnd thn walk t th cafe, played boardgames, took neos thn trained home aft buyin 'nna's dinner. & I was so clumsy @ th cafe la, keep droppin things & spilled my drink & th attendant hafta clean up D: Sry. Felt so bad la /: & PXuan got stupefyin awesome memory ok! Indeed she has, powerful brainpower, ho! {:
17.10.08
Ernerst's bdae [:
Ernerst's bdae [:
Scarnival was borin, hella borin ! Much worse > lessons ok! I'd rather have lessons, serious. Ok, I should stop abt th Scarnival be4 I start cussin. So enuf abt th Scarnival, but I muz admit This is Not Dung was interestin, teehee (childish people, ha). Chi mock was cancelled for th day, hehe. But I 4got t collect my paper t prac. @ home tho, ;P . Collected back E.Lit results thn lunch w/ HQ & Love. Oh, & extension prog.'s timetable's out alr & thr's so many SS & HMT lessons la! Gosh. But @ least dismissal time's much earlier > sch time (; So it sorta make up for th excessive SS & HMT lessons aye? But still, it doesn't mean lesson's wouldn't be a bore :X
I've always thought u'd be some1 I'd place above everyth, w/ priority t everyth I do ; I thought u'd think & feel this way too, but I suppose I was wrong. I'm nth t u ; they still mean mre t u than I do.
♥
Thursday, October 16, 2008;10:00 AM
Th subs. are arranged from th better ones t th worst for EOY, since I got nth beta t do @ th moment, L0l, be4 I meet KHay, 'nna & PXuan lata. Not gna include grades tho so th one listed first doesn't necessarily means a gd grade ok. I might fail all, juz tht I ranked 'em in accordance t which failed less, L0l.E.Maths
A.Maths
HMT
P.Phy
P.Chem
C.Geog
Eng
Com.Human
Overall, I think Chem & Eng were th most dissapointin. A lil for Phy too tho /:
Sometimes, don't you juz miss th past?
Even tho results were much worse then, life was much mre fulfillin. Why muz all gd things come t an end. Th first 5 mths of 2008 was my best time yet I ever had, seriously. Perhaps life is an equilibrium, whnever you lose smth, you gain smth ; it's nvr possible t gain everyth. Now it may seem tht my results improved slightly, but I lost alot, so much so tht apart frm results, I'm pratically nth ; empty.
I just cant believe you're gone,
still waiting for morning to come,
when i see if the sun will rise,
in the way that you're by my side,
where we had so much in store,
tell me what is it all reaching for,
when were through building memories I'll hold
yesterday in my heart,
in my heart
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
they can take the music that will never play,
all the broken dreams,
take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday,
they can take the future that will never know
they can take the places that we said we will go,
all the broken dreams,
take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday
A.Maths
HMT
P.Phy
P.Chem
C.Geog
Eng
Com.Human
Overall, I think Chem & Eng were th most dissapointin. A lil for Phy too tho /:
Sometimes, don't you juz miss th past?
Even tho results were much worse then, life was much mre fulfillin. Why muz all gd things come t an end. Th first 5 mths of 2008 was my best time yet I ever had, seriously. Perhaps life is an equilibrium, whnever you lose smth, you gain smth ; it's nvr possible t gain everyth. Now it may seem tht my results improved slightly, but I lost alot, so much so tht apart frm results, I'm pratically nth ; empty.
I just cant believe you're gone,
still waiting for morning to come,
when i see if the sun will rise,
in the way that you're by my side,
where we had so much in store,
tell me what is it all reaching for,
when were through building memories I'll hold
yesterday in my heart,
in my heart
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
they can take the music that will never play,
all the broken dreams,
take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday,
they can take the future that will never know
they can take the places that we said we will go,
all the broken dreams,
take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday
♥
Wednesday, October 15, 2008;8:49 PM
Post exam period, I'm always apologisin /: Sry for th Sh1titude face tdy. It's juz tht I thought I lost everyth once & for all, but I'm glad everyth's mre or less resolved, I guess. I h8 t be so vulnerable t tears. But I really muz thank, Twinnie, Lithium square & BFF for bein thr, esp. Lithium square, I've nvr expected you t sit by my side evn tho you could've been havin fun w/ th rest & Twinnie who've 4ever been thr everytime I encounter any probs. TYou all, really ♥ & I realised tdy, all my results are released in a pattern, tht is all th A1 & A2 papers were returned ystd, & tdy, all th B & C papers, L0l. So goin by this rate, my E.Lit would most prob be a D,E or F? D: I need lotsa luck in this matter plz. IDW t fail com.humans, tho chances are high, reaaally high /:A gd tactic you've adopted, yknw we wouldn't fight our own friends. Smart, you're reaaally smart.
♥
Tuesday, October 14, 2008;3:30 PM
So wht, sch reopened, yeh, it did. & IDK whether it was a gd thing or a bad one, ha. Would it be betta t be bored t death @ home buyin cotton {means doin nth} or be so depressed & shocked till death whn u see ur own results? Ha, now tht I think abt it, it's tough makin a decision btwn th both aye?Brief update abt ystd first k? (;
13.10.08
Watched House Bunny @ Cine Leisure w/ YXiu, JYin, JOL. & Lithium square! Th show was gaoxiaoz, no doubt, a lil porn tho, but I knw guys wouldnt mind. It's like sittin in th cinema while u're teleported t th beach w/ hot girls, ha. Do watch if u haven't ok. Saw a few of our classmates ystd, how coincidental aye? & JYin dropped her wallet @ th cinema, tsk. C la c la, kei kiang stuff everyth in ur pocket, next time bring a bag la, L0l. But luckily she managed t find it. Walked arnd Orchard awhile aft tht & yada yada yada. Overall, it was a gooday spent w/ 'em tho I still couldn't stop thinkin abt my adsurdly, ridiculously, disgustingly, horribly, done papers, ha.
Watched House Bunny @ Cine Leisure w/ YXiu, JYin, JOL. & Lithium square! Th show was gaoxiaoz, no doubt, a lil porn tho, but I knw guys wouldnt mind. It's like sittin in th cinema while u're teleported t th beach w/ hot girls, ha. Do watch if u haven't ok. Saw a few of our classmates ystd, how coincidental aye? & JYin dropped her wallet @ th cinema, tsk. C la c la, kei kiang stuff everyth in ur pocket, next time bring a bag la, L0l. But luckily she managed t find it. Walked arnd Orchard awhile aft tht & yada yada yada. Overall, it was a gooday spent w/ 'em tho I still couldn't stop thinkin abt my adsurdly, ridiculously, disgustingly, horribly, done papers, ha.14.10.08
Woke up @ usu. time tdy despite tdy's tue. Was so nervous tht I couldn't slp ystd & couldn't go back t slp @ 6 tdy /: Did nth in th day except t consistently get heart attacks frm papers received back. Personally, I feel tht one can top th class but if he/she doesn't meet his/her own expectations, he/she's still a failure. Don't compare w/ others. So wht if th others did worse/better than you. Their results are supposedly only for reference but not your benchmark. So if you think you did your best, gave it your best shot, performed up to your expectations, you're alr a success. Furthermre, if you juz keep comparin, would thr ever be an end t comparisons? No right? [: & w/ this, I'm sry for givin everyone my sh1t face, cos I seriously don't think I did well @ all this time round. My A(s) are still not enuf t cover up for all my terribly, atrociously flunked papers which shall be returned tmr. But of course, I muz be glad I have mre opportunities t improve , so would everyone else ;D;DLove's{Cora} bdae! :D
Oh yes, & my sch shoes are gettin th hell outta me. Th hind of my shoe's even stained w/ blood frm my blisters, gah. But still, thks SSS for lendin me ur plaster {:
Exams might be ovr, but nxt month, we'd be havin 'O' Lvl SPAs & Chi 'O' Lvl. So practically speakin, no mre time t slack alr D: Chi mock starts tmr aft sch & will con. every sch day till 'O' Lvl ends D:
Note t self : START GEARIN URSELF UP & STUDY HARD YO.
♥
Monday, October 13, 2008;10:25 AM
AHOY.
I'm guess I'm still worryin ovr my results la pffs. 1st thing I did whn I woke up this morn. was t think of my reults. Hella torturin ok! ); I'm worryin cos I'm hangin on thread; on th brink of failin. Those who've always did well & are bound t ace almost every sub. won't und. how I feel cos they needn't wry D: GRR. Of course I have my own desired grades tho ; & I'd be mre thn grateful if I can get my desired grades.
Y are u alwayz declinin us? You shut urself from us, so much so tht we can no longer approach you, even whn we stretch out our hands, u're no longer thr anymre. Is this th way u really want?
♥
Sunday, October 12, 2008;8:44 PM
Watched Mamma Mia ! w/ parents tdy. A lil disappointment I'd say ; not as nice as I expected it t be, still, th songs were awesome, really.
& tmr, I'm gna watch Th House Bunny w/ YXiu, JOL. , JYin & Lithium square [; TEEHEE. Much anticipated. I'm sososoo x1000 glad I'm finally goin out, else I'd be bored t death worryin abt my results @ home. I knw i knw I'm on a tight budget + I'm supposed t save up but aye, once or twice is ok righto? & JOL. was so cute luh, DK tmr's a hol, HA, & said she'd have gone t sch as usu. if I didn't tell her, L0l.Packed & organized my file cos my mom told me t ; my mom's friend want my stuffs for reference. K, don't get me started. Thou I've finished packin my ws + notes for th entire yr for every subj. , I'm still pissed. Took me 3hours t pack, pffs.
P.s. I spend every min. of my time thinkin abt my results, countin th no. of subs. I'm gna fail till I lost count. E.Lit & E.Maths are my gr8est regret among all th papers for EOY, yes, even up till now still regrettin v.badly. 12 marks washed down th toilet bowl for E.Maths leh, tell me how not t regret. Could've got me 2 grades higher. 2, two! EFF.
P.s. I spend every min. of my time thinkin abt my results, countin th no. of subs. I'm gna fail till I lost count. E.Lit & E.Maths are my gr8est regret among all th papers for EOY, yes, even up till now still regrettin v.badly. 12 marks washed down th toilet bowl for E.Maths leh, tell me how not t regret. Could've got me 2 grades higher. 2, two! EFF.
Knw why tmr's a hol? Cos it's MARKING DAY(I). Means it's th day whr scripts are marked & while we're out & enjoyin ourselves, th tchrs are scrutinizin our scripts & accessin'em. GAH. & i think 3G's A.Maths paper are alr marked, as promised by Ms Woo, th ever so efficient. *Screams hysterically* You needn't wry if u've been consistent in ur work & did ur revisions but for me, I depend a whole deal on luck.
♥
Saturday, October 11, 2008;10:56 AM
I've learnt t be happier (;
People who are meant t be, would last till th v.end
People who weren't meant t be, no pt tryin t hold on t it so tightly ;
Let go.
People who are meant t be, would last till th v.end
People who weren't meant t be, no pt tryin t hold on t it so tightly ;
Let go.
10.10.08 {Th day I call, perfect 10 day}
Woke up @ 6+ tho thr was no sch for me cos.. Exams were over alr, ha { said tht on deliberate purpose t make those who had papers ystd t be jealous, teehee. Still, ystd was th last paper for all } Town-ed w/ San. & HQ. Gr8 time w/ 'em, really, enablin me t forget abt my post-exam blues, ha. & I managed t buy my new sch shoes + slippers, ho ; finally. Been repeatin tht I'm goin t buy 'em aft this test tht test yet I still didn't ha. Thks San. & HQ for runnin arnd juz t get my shoes cos.. I was so paranoid la! Hee. Spent th most for th day, & now I'm guilty D: But don't wry, I like th shoes very muchiez! ;DSupposed t go t Sentosa w/ JY, San. , HQ, Dbr & 'vonne tdy but couldn't make it /: Really sry abt backin out. Next time alrighty? Still, I hope y'all would have fun (;(;
! & I WANTA WATCH :
Now Showin :
Mamma Mia ;
House Bunny ;
Out on 23 Oct :
HSM3 ;
Out on 30th Oct :
Sing t th Dawn ;
SAW V (surprisingly it's rated G) ;
Out on 18th Dec :
Twillight.
Now Showin :
Mamma Mia ;
House Bunny ;Out on 23 Oct :
HSM3 ;Out on 30th Oct :
Sing t th Dawn ;
SAW V (surprisingly it's rated G) ;Out on 18th Dec :
Twillight.I knw I'm contradictin ; I'm tryin t minimise my expenses yet I wanta watch movies. Ha.
Tht nighmare of u juz, muz we really end up this way ; expandin hatred till such an extent ?
Tht nighmare of u juz, muz we really end up this way ; expandin hatred till such an extent ?
♥
Thursday, October 9, 2008;4:05 PM
Miseries come in series ;
I knw I'm supposed t be happy but I ain't, seriously, not @ all. I feel like coopin myself @ home & plan out my every approach.
I'm humankind's greatest disgrace.
P.s. Hopefully I wouldn't spoil anyone's mood in th days t come. Sry if I were t be a put off in th upcomin days ; I'd try t contain my emotions tho {:
I'm strong on the surfaceI can't be who you are.
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memoryForgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
♥
Wednesday, October 8, 2008;8:45 PM
HMT & Geog paper. No comments. Wrote wht I could squeeze outta my brain juices & now I'm hopin earnestly against hope I'd pass all papers, yes includin A.Maths paper tmr. Realised I'm extremely careless + I still feel I don't have adequate practice despite all th various papers Ms Woo improvised D: Pffs. Not cele. tmr aft papers I suppose, like wht San. said, wht's thr t cele. ? Think we'd be mournin aft th A.Maths paper, HA. Personally, I feel so too.Plz, I wanta pass all papers, desperately.
I might be surrounded by peepo yet I still feel v.alone. Her importance t you is makin u unapproachable.You juz hafta include her in everyth I suggest. Sometimes, I juz feel like spendin quality & personal time w/ you. But I reckon you've nvr realised this.
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Tuesday, October 7, 2008;8:30 PM
E.Lit & Chem paper tdy. E.Lit I tell u was atrocious ok! I didn't study anyth @ all & I don't understand th unseen passages. & my answers were short like.. D: Th rest of th lit students were so studiously writin away & I was lookin arnd & stuffs! Wonder how they could've so much t write. Couldn't think of anyth t write & ended up slpin. MPH was relatively warm tdy so instead of wearin th windbreaker, I used it as my pillow instead. Gah. Now I'm really regrettin for not attemptin th paper seriously, it could have been pretty do-able. Thr, now it's another paper failed. Chem was hmm, IDK, L0l. Section C was tough ok, didn't knw how t do QnB9(b) & KY said th qns was discussed in class be4, HA. Obviously I wasn't payin attention.Somehow, I still find E.Maths toughest thus far, ha. But I knw my opinions would most definitely change aft tmr/ thurs, cos I've this intuition tht Geog & A.Maths are gna be 1000x times harder /: C.Geog tmr & I still don't understand platetonics ; all th various forms, lava, magma, mantle, crust, fold mountains, earthquakes & volcanoes are hella!P.s. I miss P.E ); Haven't been havin P.E for weeks alr! D:
Thn, whn we were much closer, I wish t relive those moments.
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Monday, October 6, 2008;7:12 PM
Why d'you have to go and make things so complicated?
{Yes, I'm referin t myself}
{Yes, I'm referin t myself}
I thought I was in North Pole in th MPH tdy. No jokes ok! Bet all felt th same way too. Tmr, I'm gna be smarter, & bring my jacket, ho. Hmm, SS was slightly betta > expected. Hopefully I'd manage t fare betta this time round & I conveniently avoided chpt 6, hah. Th chpt which I keep failin lah! ;P Left qns 1C blank since I didn't have th time t do it D: Seems tht almost every1 couldn't complete th paper. E.Maths was horrid. Hopes for A1 were perished, but hmm, hopin for an A2, but I doubt I'd even manage t get an A2 la, lest I don't make any careless mistake, which is HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE. Th bearings qns costed me 12 marks. I knw how t do everyth ok, I couldn't find th angle, tht's all, & tada, threw my 12 marks away. 12 12 12 twelvee! It wasn't until aft th papers tht I realised I was thinkin in th right direcetion juz tht I was a lil blind tht's all. Left a few qns blank as well, so 20 marks gone in total.
GREAT. {Note th sarcasm}
Eng Lit & Chem paper tmr & I'm absolutely unprepared. Gahh. Fact is, I don't even knw wht is tested for E.Lit, HAA. HA, DOUBLE HA T MYSELF. & Chem, aye. Gone case ok ; have nvr excel in it, nvr. Worse part is I have yet t revise anyth @ all. Tskkk.
Sometimes, I'd think havin u is a bliss.
Sometimes, I'd think havin u is a bliss.
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Sunday, October 5, 2008;6:44 PM
I need a lil mre luck than a lil bit
I need a lil more help than a lil bit
I need a lil more help than a lil bit
IDK if havin exams in th MPH is a gd thing or not, but it certainly made me mre nervous. Can even feel my stomach doin a lil somersault now. Revisions were not quite complete & now I'm tryin t complete 'em in a haste, esp. E.Maths D: Hopefully I can complete 'em all + start w/ a lil of Chem, HOPEFULLY. & I tell u, th melamine issue is deprivin everyone of gd food ok! SCREW ***** (;
I can tell u like her alot now, placin her above everyth ; u two are almost inseparable & I'm juz a passerby t u now. Whn u told me u found a new love, I should've knwn.
I can tell u like her alot now, placin her above everyth ; u two are almost inseparable & I'm juz a passerby t u now. Whn u told me u found a new love, I should've knwn.
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Saturday, October 4, 2008;6:37 PM
Revisin makes me reallyyy feel like slpin {esp, SS}. Lost count how many times I dozed off halfway whilst revisin ok. GAH. I even dreamt of my score for P.Physics ok ; 70 marks. Let's see if this dream is accurate k, most prob. not lahorh? If my dreams are so accurate thn I'd have been a fortune teller by now. & my Physics ain't tht gd la, I knw D:I knw, u're true ; too gd t be true.
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Friday, October 3, 2008;4:18 PM
Tdy's fri but it don't feeel like friday! Knw why? Cos thr's no tuition tdy! D: Seriously feel so outta place la! Papers tdy were, hmm, let's juz settle @ average ok.
I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away (I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way? (Was it something I did?)
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?
I think u deserve a MUCH beta one, seriously. &.., i think we should talk.
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Thursday, October 2, 2008;5:30 PM
TMRRR IS TH P.H.Y.S.I.C.S PAPER.
BLESS ME BLESS ME! Plz, lemme pass, plzzz. I really, desperately, need th luck. W/o luck, I'm nothin, seriously.
I've always thought, wht I did was for th best for us, but I suppose I was wrong. I didn't knw how serious it could get till tdy ; I didn't knw how much it could hurt till tdy, I didn't realise how much hurt I've inflicted t all th parties involved till tdy. We'll see. & i really hope i'll get wht i'm expectin, tdy. But I think I'd be disappointed. Bcos I've disappointed u, I knw you'd nvr pin any hopes on me, evr agn, sry.
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