Pretty interesting righto? {: And I swear hols hwk are horrid.


I knw I'm contradictin @ times but this time 'round, I'm really learnin t appreciate everyth & everyone esp. mateY, pretz & twin who've been thr for me t unburden my heart contents t. Really appreciated ♥. I think f/s is th current issue nowadays. Seems t me tht everyone's reflectin 'bout th true purpose of f/s, whether it's just for companionship or? Sometimes it occurs t me wht's th pt of f/s when we'd eventually be goin on separate routes & new friends step in & old friends, replaced. It appears t me tht people usu. regard new friends as wonder & keep stickin t 'em whereas old friends are whatever & are trashed arnd. Wht's th pt of holdin on t a f/s so tightly whn ultimately in life, we'd still hafta walk th journey alone.

Sincerity, is th utmost impt in r/s of all sorts.
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HAPPY TCHRS DAY.

I think I should look on th brighter side of life. Furthermre, it's th sch hols now. I knw I have really great friends & I really do appreciate'em.

Sometimes, life is really ironic.People whom I nvr thought I want t have as friends, are now my friends & friends whom I thought could last till th v.end are estranged. & sometimes, I can get jealous, yes really jealous of random people. Bcos I still feel inferior.


Disappointed. Esp in self.

IDK why I've seemed t give up on my studies. Indeed I had. These few days I've been wondering, why push myself t such extreme stress when I'm just junk who'd nvr make it. I think trash like me oughta be sent t th incineration centre & leave t burn & rot. W/ such holy shitty results like mine, I'm sure you'd feel likewise. Whn I do well, people say it's solely exam luck but whn I fail, people snicker & mock @ me. Ain't pessimistic, just realistic. I don't see why I should constantly come up w/ an excuse for self. I am trash, I knw. If I pull th overall grade of 3G down, I'd gladly leave & transfer t other sch, drop out or whtsoever.

I'm so tired of giving myself chances over & over agn only t fail myself yet agn.

Happiness is not as great w/o you by my side.


Happy Bdae S(an.)S(trawb.)S(teady) ♥

May all your wishes come true on this v.special & significant day of yours.

Got back SS results. Wasn't tht bad as expected, but still, failed :P E8 for Com.Humans. Crazed durin C.Geog. Extreme fun k. Dessert-ed @ Swensen w/ 'Vonne aft sch & we played 5,10,15,20 & penalty was t drink th chilli+tomato+pepper+salt drink. Yes, & I drank most of it, pffs.

Absence makes th heart grows fonder. Don't leave k.



Incredible day.

Thanks JY, 'vonne & 'Yin for th great time, esp aft CIP & th rest of th girls durin CIP ♥ & KY for th BT {; A few mre hours t San.'s big day.

Don't force us t th extreme whereby we can only resort in splittin into two. We used t be 1 identity but difference in ideology has torn us apart just like repellin magnet poles.


Whn th truth is blatant, don't even bother denying or feignin oblivion. Th truth mightn't be pretty as it has nvr been. Face it, I, CHONGJIAHUI, IS NOT A STUDY CALIBER.

Th one, just one, word which begins w/ F i detest most, F9. Failed com. humans w/ a distasteful F(9). Eng was not any better, D7. Whn you fail your Eng, it doesn't matter how many A you fared. They're eventually reduced t nil, nothin. Geddit?


I left th examination room, a failure. If you're really gd, even if th rest fail, you'd still ace it.



GooDay.

Indeed, it was. Glad you liked your present + everyth tdy San. & thanks HQ & San. for th food. A mountainous pile of hwk t be completed, grr. BeiJing Olympics '08 closing cere. @ 8pm tdy. Haven't been watchin it for days, cos yknw why. K, if you don't, cos swimmin events are over, hee.


Knw wht, I saw my PriSch TT on th way home @ night ystd. OMG. It was a beautiful coincidence k. Chatted w/ her & reached home @ 11pm. Missed her like siaozx. K, tdy morn. was crazyyy. & yknw wht, I think I seriously needta invest in an umbrella. Now I realise th importance of it. But Deb. & I agree tdy morn. was pretty memorable, smth which we'd look back @ someday & laugh our heads off. E.Lit play was amazing. Betcha jaws dropped in amusement, if you didn't, perhaps you oughta learn how t appreciate art & stop bein a frog in th shaft wall {: Shopped 'round Bugis Mall w/ YY, KH, 'nna & Deb for a while & homed. I'd have loved t go w/ JY & co. but unfortunately I did not have th money. Still, anticipatin t tmr. Hope you'll enjoy yourself tmr San. {:

"Swear t speak th truth, th whole truth & only th truth, yessum, i do." Ask no questions & receive no lies people.

& my deepest apology for my attitude tdy people. But it wasn't now tht I realise th people whom I complain 'bout th most are ultimately those whom I love & treasure th most.


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Let's just start this post w/ this smiley k. Lookin forward t :

1. E.Lit TKAM play @ RafflesHotel tmr
2. San.'s b'dae cele @ HQ's house on Sun
3. CIP Newsp. collection next tue ( IDK why th sam hill why I included this, but think it'd be fun (; )
4. Far East tgt w/ Deb. & SH t purchase th bracelets for choir next week
5. Choir performance @ Jurong Bird Park on 4/9 ( Don't laugh k people, i knw it's a weird place t perform @ but still..xD )

Many a times, I smile not bcos I'm happy, but t constantly remind myself tht I am happy. Smiles are just a mask of facade I wear t conceal my true identity & emotions.


If my failure is your source of happiness, you're definitely goin t be over th moonn in th days t come.

K, I knw repeatedly I tell everyone I'm goin t fail but in th end managed t scrape through it w/ a mere pass but failin my SS & some of th rest of papers is not a lie. So not so not. Wht you guys see are th passes but th failures are not t be seen yet cos it's saved for th finale, a huge blow t end up th entire thing. I knw people will be mockin @ me at my results for th rest of th days, I'm mentally prepared. I can even predict th grades I'd be gettin for th rest of th papers, & they ain't pretty FYI, lotsa F9 and underlined scores.


Yes, I knw it's 5+ in th morn, but since I'm awake I shall update (:

17/8/08

• Day out w/ Yin, Vonne, San, HQ & JY.
  
• Shopped around @ FarEast, dined, took neos, caught 'Meet Dave', supper-ed, trained t TPY t support Sg Olympic Table Tennis, home-d.
  
• We got a SILVER {: We were sincerely, desperately, hopin we get gold so we get Monday off, but it was not t be.
  

18/8/08

• Day started off w/ a wrong note, sry.
  
• K, didn't fail my Maths, none of 3G did so it's nth t be proud / rejoyce bout. Th rest of th subs. are wht really concerns me.
• Lessons were slack esp. E.E.Lit whr we got t watch TKAM movie. Gah, aft watchin th movie, th image of th characters were utterly tarnished for th majority of us. Hopefully Sat's performance wouldn't be a disappointment & I wouldn't fall asleep halfway, hah.
  

• Tell me why I ain't smilin when CT's over. Bcos I knw results are goin t be like sh1t. Ystd it occurred t me how many subs I'm gna fail. IDK I just have this feelin I'm failin every sub. Yes, P.Chem, P.Phy, A.Maths, E.Maths, HMT, Eng, C.Geog, SS, E.E.Lit, everyth. Dreadin-g sch next week. For th v.first word of my SS till my v.last word, I was outta pt. Smart right? Sometimes I think I deserve a slap on th face. Jerked outta bed @ 4-5am this morn @ th thought of my P.Chem & other subs. results & was unable t return t sleep . Still, lookin forward t tmr's cele w/ classmateys {; Yes, before I tear uncontrollably upon release of results next week.

• For 48 yrs, we yearned for our 2nd Olympics Medal & now we finally secured it. Yes, we made it t th finals. It was a historical moment fer all Singaporeans ystd. Somehow, I think wht TT said was pretty true tho. We didn't make it, China did. & we'd be competin against China on th finals on Sun, wht irony. I'm no longer into Olympics. Even hub does not gimme th vibe t watch. I can't be cheerin on other athletes whn I just screwed my own game, CT.
  

END OF CT. GRR-EAT. Horrendous performance though. But tuitions are still on lata D: Shan't ela. much abt th papers. You knw how it went. If you find it tough, I'd have most prob found it 1000x harder. Truly, sincerely wish I'd pass P.Chem, bcos it means alot t me, get it? Mdm Yeo told me I pass initially but lata said I should be O-K. Tskk. Define should & O-K. Strong competitors, really amazing chemists in class & I highly doubt I'd stand a chance of bein 1 of th top 10 who passed. & IDW t fail HMT, tell me, tell me I'm not 1 of th 3 who failed, pls. IDK why I just have this paranoia tht I'm one of th failures tchr are mentionin.

Went t J8 t cele w/ Deb & we caught Lee J W's match. Yes, it was breathtakin. You'll knw wht I mean if you've watched it. They were really incredible & close. Oh, & B upgraded t become my BFF just tdy. BestFriendForever? Is tht wht occured t y'all? Nay, she's just my stinky BlueberryFlounderFishY. HAH.


P.Chem paper was trash. I thought I saw th light but I realised it was actu th gleam of light peepo see before death, understand wht I'm gettin @? Yes, th paper killed me. Th rest were O-K. Keepin my fingers crossed fer th rest of th papers. I just want a 3 starter fer papers I've completed thus far + a starter of 5 fer HMT. Not too much t ask for right? {:

Anywayzx, caught th Badminton Women Doubles @ 12am ystd, it was supposed t be showcasted @ 8+ but somehow it was postponed D: We had a head start but th Koreans picked up & got th better of us. But still, it was an awesome match (;






This guy, MICHAEL PHELPS ♥ is my current craze. A talent he is, indeed he is. Winnin numerous of Gold medals for USA @ a tender age of 23. MY. Hot ain't he? Hee. Fly me t USA peepo. (L)♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥



Officially fanatic bout BeiJing Olympic 2008. I can just stare @ th tvee screen for hours & hours audiencin th Olympic Games. Now my entire mind is racin w/ snapshots of th games. Gah.

10.24am, Tao Li represented Sg in th finals for 100m Women Butterfly & emerged 5th w/ a timin of 57.99s slightly behind China. Still, it's whooping incredible right? {: She was reallyyy close t a medal, 4th fastest swimmer qualified fer th Finals. Concurrently, Susilo lost t Malaysian badminton player, Lee C W. Nonetheless, Sg's still proud of'em right? :D Oh oh, & our v.own Badminton Women Double team has successfully made it t th top 8 or 16 & would be competin lata @ 8.25. Watch k? Anticipatin Lee J W's matches (;

Common Test's tmr, wish me luck peepo. Sometimes if you don't have th intelligence, you can only depend on luck, yes, peepo like me.


Caught a few hours of Olympics game. Gah, I'm addicted. & our v.own Team Singapore athlete, TAOLI will be makin it t th finals fer 100m female Butterfly tmr {: Awesome right? George Bush was thr t support his swimming athletes tdy & USA won lotszx of medals,mind you. Anywayzx, number patterns is makin me nutszx. H8 it t th coreee. & I'm only halfway through P.Chem revisions. God. Hopefully I'd be able t make it before Tue (: Currently livin on tidbits TT treated me on Fri, thanks chr :D Hp earpiece was spoilt & daddy ain't intendin t replace it. In fact, he was rather glad tht it was spoilt. Grr, reckon I'd hafta fork out money from my own pockets t purchase it.

Athletes + Caucasians are ultimate love ♥ I think they're extremely cool k.



HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE (;

Caught th opening ceremony of Olympics2008 + some of its games tdy. My, I think Olympic is wayy cool t th max & somehow Olympics seemed t be my source of motivation for CT {: & I hate it when my phone has $0.00 credit.



NATIONAL DAY CELE + CCHY FAMILY BAZAAR'08.

Overall it was pretty fun except tht it could've been shortened. Tchrs brought their kids along & some are really adorableee. & sry S fer deleting those pictos w/ my f(at) face. Passion for balloons lost tdy, smth which I claimed t love greatly. It's amazin how preference + love changes over time.

Perhaps I've not quite gotten over our past.


Th distaste of hatred's still lingering.

IDK why I'm elated t go sch everyday (; Tuition's cancelled tdy so I'd have mre time t complete hwk. GRR-eat ;D One t one tgt w/ BestFriend again. Been long since I've sat down & tried comprehending BestFriend. Tdy shall be th day. & before I forget, a v.happy bdae t ONGTSZEHWEE {APPLE} + NICHOLASLIM (:

You got me begging you for mercy. Perhaps my approach has been wrong from th v.start.



Super super determined fer POLYTECHNIC. I think it's wayy cool k. IDC if I'd be th only one in class who end up in poly whereas others con. pursuin their edu. @ JCs. I knw I'm not capable of JC, get it? I ain't study quality & tht I must admit. No pt. stressing myself for someth which I can hardly achieve right? {: Thr, knwing your own self-limits is impt. Settin your target within your reach + knwin wht you genuinely want is also equally as imperative (: Thks Ms Lin fer sharin all those stuffs w/ us. I think I knw wht I want now. Grr-eat ;D

Was almost late fer sch tdy. Thks SSS fer waitin fer me despite. Appreciated (;

Not born t please you. Still unhappy? I suggest you bang th wall. It's not as if you're on th top of th world or whtsoever right? Hello? Get down t earth. P.s. Just bcos it may seem tht I'm referin t you, it mightn't be. Don't speculate.



Yknw, I think Chi is cool t th max yo. Esp idioms & sayings, really. I'd never, never wanta give up on chi, you hear? (: Been slackin th entire day thinkin tht P.Phy test's only on Moments till I realised tht Pressure's also tested via class blog D: Gah, totally suck @ Pressure k? Pressurized. Anywayzx, current observation tht I don't connect w/ peepo when i talk t them but tht doesn't mean I'm not interested in our conver right? {: Still, I'd try t improve on it.

Why keep starin, my dear? Wouldn't it be stressful t your eyes? For th v.last time, I'd try t close a blind eye t your actions bcos of th mere friendship we once shared. Short-lived, yet pretty memorable. Yet ovr & ovr again, you tested my boundaries.


8th anniversary w/ Twinnie ystd. & she passed me a handmade card. Really sweet of her ;D LY twinn ♥ Lunch tgt w/ deb. @ CWP PizzaHut & Gelare, shopped arnd, bought stuffs & thn tuitioned. Awesome noon spent w/ her. Love afternoons spent this way (; Have moree of it next time k orangie?

3 Papers failed thus far D: Reckon th 4th one is on it's way /: 3, 3, 3! THREEE! When thr's th first one, thr'd be mre t come & it's only th first month since sch reopened. I don't like it when peepo look down @ me, sayin stuffs tht it's rare tht I pass & blah.Sassed yaknw? I'm tryin my v.best but it ain't my fault tht I'm still as stupid as ever right? Who doesn't wish t be a smartass? I might be dumb in comparison w/ you but I ain't a dimwit. Yknw who you are right? {: I'm sry but studies are my current sensitive topic.

Now tht I think bout it, I don't really mind actu. , but my ans' is still th same.

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