Monday, November 24, 2008;8:29 PM
IT HURTS IT HURTS IT hurts );
Soooo v.much.
I fear history will replay itself bcoz it seems t have. Everytime things go wrong I'm left all by myself, no support no nothing while others have all th forces t 'emselves. No one ever stopped by in their hectic life t care bout how I feel. They'd MUCH RATHER amuse other people than t give a shave bout me, HAHAHA.
Don't say tht you care. Whr were you whn I felt so miserable? Flirting w/ th guyz, right. You don't evn realise I was missin, ha. How gr8 a friend can you be. You give me th impression tht entertainin, amusin & flirtin w/ th rest are your prior in life. If your friend is upset, IT DOESN'T MATTER. As long as you have th guyz, as long u're happy. Everytime you laugh I couldn't take it anymre. I've always dropped obvious hints tht I don't like certain of ur actions, but you refused t believe coz you always believe tht NO ONE in this god damn world will dislike you coz u're soooo 'adorable'. Right. You're always praisin urself t heaven but demoralisin me like I don't need pride. Think back @ everyth you've said t me. THINK! How can it be so tht I was feelin so miserable, on th brink of th tears while you whose juz beside me can laugh & jokin & havin th time of ur life w/ th guyz.
" A FRIEND IS ONE WHO STEPS IN WHN TH WORLD STEPS OUT "
Sometimes I ponder if you really stepped in before.
A true friend is supposed t be by his/her side whn he/she's down & not laughing away & being oblivion t her feelings. Ystd, I realise I've lost you. I realise it's really time t review this f/s. I don't want t forsake th gd memories we shared. But..th hurt you've caused me weigh equally as much as th gd memories we had.
I'M QUITTIN JOB, YES, MOST PROB.
My heart says quit but my mind says no :X Tell me, wht t do. Workin is like hell t me, seriously. 18th lvl of hell. So torturous, like a knife piercin thru my heart.
Ystd, I realized tht perhaps god really cr8ed mankind equally. While others are blessed w/ intelligence, charm, beauty or whtever sh1t. I'm blessed w/ a supernatural power, ha !
Coz I finally realised I'm I-N-V-I-S-I-B-L-E. No one really notice my presence, no one gives a damn. Everyone is oblivious t my feelings, no one bothers, HAHAHAAAAAAAA. No one has this supernatural power but me, ha. One & only huh?
I'm an invisible superwoman.
Superwoman was included coz I promised myself t be strong, but thn I realise no, im seriously a superwoman coz I wear my undergarments inside out & basically I'm th fool, people nvr take me seriously, get wht I mean now? :D
DON'T WRY. I'LL ADAPT T MY SUPERNATURAL POWER SOON (;
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